So I figure since there are limited people here that read this i can vent because I can't on facebook. I just want to say that I'm so sick and tired of living with my room mates. I swear to god! Seriously I feel like a mom. I get up at 6:30 everyday to go to school/work. I get home at 5:30 to come home to a sink full of dirty dishes and my lazy ass room mate watching tv. Like WTF you don't have class at ALL on friday and most other days you don't have class until 12 the least you can do is wash the dishes or put the clean ones away. I'm especially pissed because in the last week I've bought food for the both of us 2 times, not only did I pay for it, i cooked it and then cleaned up all the dishes. I'm seriously to young to be dealing with this shit already. I felt bad for considering going off and living with my other friends next year but at this point in time i could really care less.

So I figured since I haven't even logged into this in a while and I look to see everyone updated pretty recently I should as well.

So for the last month or so I've been just working and hanging out with Duncan everyday except last week when he went to Florida and even then I was still at his house taking care of his cats. It was probably the worst/most boring week of my life. But anyway...

Amanda came for a nice little surprise visit a few days ago. We are getting an apartment! I'm so excited I can't wait it's going to save me a lot of money over all, and seeing how my college funds have been cut off without knowing they were going to be it will be somewhat of a help in the long run I suppose. After I move in and summer is over I'm probably going to be getting some kittens. I can't wait for that either I've been wanting something other then a fish for a while.

I can't wait for school to start. Western is lame without people, well all the people. There are always people here, mostly work friends and stuff. But I miss my room mates. And I miss all my friends at home too. Even though I'm not in st. clair shores doesn't mean I'm not alive. I would like to talk to people once in a while you know. I kind of feel pushed away and it's probably my fault mostly but I feel like I shouldn't be relying on my parents anymore and living here is how I'm doing it. =/

So right now I'm sitting in the random computer lab in my schools student centerish thing, I don't really know why I just called it random because it really isn't, and well I have about another 15 before I have to walk to class so I figured that I would type up a little something while I was sitting here.

So anyway so far this summer hasn't really been much of a summer. I go to class 2 days a week and it's a 3 hour class. Guess it's good to get this credit done and over with because I hate history and I guess it's not that bad. It's nice now that I'm thinking about it that the class is crammed into 8 weeks so I can really just get it done with quickly. haha. But basically when I'm not in class I'm usually working at the good old Cold Stone Creamery of Kalamazoo, or Portage, wherever they feel like they want me at I guess. I'm probably going to be working at some Cold Stone somewhere for the rest of my life I decided because I never want to branch out and get a different job, tried that once, didn't work out so well....

Monday I'm going to Cedar Point with Amy!!! I'm so excited I think that will be my vacation this summer. lmao. Then Amy is going to come see me the week after =D
It will be the first time anyone besides my family has come to see me, she's the best! But anyway it's just about time to walk to class so I'm going to go...

That this weekend was probably the most random but best weekend I have had in a really long time :)

BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(enough said)

So I was once again rejected by this stupid school. Well not really but wait listed to be in the music school. I am kind of upset but instead of being pessimistic about the situation I decided to take advantage of it. Everyday I kind of dread going to every music class I have...especially piano and I never want to go to my clarinet lessons, don't even get me started on how much I hate the other music majors that make everyone in band who isn't a music major lifes hell because they think that they're the shit. Anyway! I changed my major yesterday to fashion design. So this means I get to study in Paris in a year!!! I'm really excited. I hope that I make good clothes? I mean I don't find myself very fashionable, though I don't really have the money to be, but I do make a few cool things here and there so we will see! yay!

If I could right now I was scream "Fuck You" right to your face. To bad I'm here and I can't confront people like that...

It's been a while. Figured I would say something. So another semester has begun and I'm content. School is good, Algebra is easy and I was stupid for taking a class seeing how I placed in a math class 3 classes higher. To late now. We took a quiz the other day and everyone got all of the questions wrong except me and there were 3 others that got like one right I think. I don't understand why solving linear equations is so difficult for some people. haha.

I got a job at the cold stone here yesterday. I'm really excited! It looks like it's going to be fun and it's nice to see how each one is different in there operations. The one here the people get here at 8am to start opening the store and they open at 11 like the one at home but we only go in at 10:30. I was like omg, what do you do in that time? Like I guess make ice cream and stuff but usually I can set up everything, count the safe, open geha or whatever is closed and frost a cake in an hour, as well as get a good start on ice cream production. But then again maybe they have other things they have to go too. I should really run a store some day because I'm so into this cold stone carp, me and the owner were like talking about ways to improve the store and sharing tips. It was a bit weird. She also knows my boss. That was weird too, but not really because my boss would stick out of a group of people. It looks like the owners are actually involved in there store though and I like that. We will see how it goes. She seems to think that I probably won't stay long because I guess a lot a people transfer to the store because they come to kvcc or western and need a job. I guess a lot of people have problems adjusting to new ways of running things and I guess I understand that. But people are also retarded and need to learn that everything can't always go the way they want it to.

Other then that nothing to much is going on, I've been sick and that's always fun when no where around here excepts your insurance and you don't know what's wrong with you and the one place that will take your insurance is like sorry we are too full and well we can get you in Thursday even though you might die by then because today is Monday. I hate people, but that's nothing new...

So right now I'm sitting here at 2:25 AM with not much to do because I already hit the refresh button on Myspace and Facebook about 10 times each and realized no one is up and I will probably not be getting anymore comment or "wall posts" tonight. I have come to the decision that I love it here(EMU that is)and I want to move here and go here. The people I have been so lucky to meet were awesome. Its almost sad that I have gotten to know more people here in the last 5 hours then I have in the last 2 weeks at WMU. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that Leanee is here and she knows people and I feel better being me around her then people I dont know. I really have no idea but I like it here and I know that. I've already started looking into the music program here because I've given up on Westerns anyway, I seem to not be good enough. I didnt know that music therapy required you to be a professional musician before entering college. Its really gay and I almost don't care and in a way thats why I havent even tried to get into to contact with the Clarinet Professor there. But I am now so I can use them for their lessons they want to give me then be like o well you had your chance fuckers.

Besides that all is going well at school with the room sit now that me and Becky are moving into our own room and we will only have to deal with our ex quad mate when we pass her in the hall to go to the bathroom or something. though I dont even think that we will see her that much seeing how she actually doesn't live in our room. she just keeps her stuff there. Well yeah so I think thats all for now. Leanees suite mates are having sex in the next room and it really loud and I dont think I will be sleeping...I dont think I like that girl....I feel bad for her room mate....

So my quad mate wants to move out. My room mate wants her to move out. And i could care less either way. I'm tired of both of them. I mean I agree with both of them. We shouldn't have toutched her shit it was a missunderstanding but she didnt need to flip out about it. And my room mate doesnt need to be acting like she is right now either. WHY CANT EVERYONE JUST GET ALONG!!! Darn it i wish i would just meet other people so i could get out of this room. This room is the cause of all evil. OMG!

So its been almost one week and we are already having problems with my "quad mate" And the thing is shes the one that went to the ra and complained and she is the one that 1. doesnt lock the door, 2. Brings guys in at 4 am and then stay over, 3. is never there so when we want to move shit around she never knows or has a say so its not really our fault. So now we are having a meeting tomorrow with our ra and we are going to fill out a "room mate contract" or something like that. The thing is that me and Becky don't even know what we did beside move some of her towles out of a dresser in the common room that needs to go because its taking up to much room and they already talked about moving her extra furnature out so we dont know what her problem is. But anyway shes pissing me off at this point.

Classes are good i guess. Nothing much more to talk about because all i do is sit i my room. Going to class is a nice break from watching tv...wow im lame.

Im going to be like Leanee because shes cool and write in this. So im here at school now for the last 2 days. The first day was boring as all hell and neither my room mate or suite mate where here. I got there and all the doors to my hall were locked up and I was like okay its 10:30 wtf. So after walking around forever my dad found someone and they were like wow everything was supposed to be open at 9. Im like way to go. So then they give me the key and tell me to go look at my room and fill out this form. But I couldn’t get to my room because they didn’t give me the security key to get in. They need to get there shit together.
So I get everything into my room and its all good I guess. Then I just sat around all day after my parents left. Not going to lie I want to come home even now. I walked around with Michelle yesterday and it was okay but im sure she doesn’t want to see me like all the time so I should really meet some new people but I’m just not an outgoing person.
Also yesterday I got lost going to target and I was scared so I called my parents and I was like way out in bfe I wasn’t even in kzoo anymore. Haha but I got back and made it to target. My parents called my room making sure I got back and my room mate answered the phone and she was confused. But anyway yeah. I should be reading my psy book because I need to know the text when I come to class….later

my first day out of school and im already bored as hell. I was begging to let them keep me at work so i didnt have to go home were I am currently sitting but they made me leave. this sucks...

work and tears are like roller blades and snow...they dont go together.

if this is so why am i at work and why am i crying?

WOW its been i while...i dont think that it really matters much because like no one writes in these things anymore but o well im bored. So Sat. the show went well we made about $300 it was good. Maybe me and Amy will do something like that again but just for fun and not to get money for anything. But this time we need to advertise for it more. Yeah so now i really have nothing to write just the same old stuff diffrent day. I think Saturday was about the most exciting thing in a long time. All the other days of my like i just work and if im not doing that im on the computer doing something but now that i think of it i really dont know what i do...? O well im done going on about nothing.

some how no matter what I always lose...you think I would get used to it after all these years

Wow it's been a while. I just don't seem to have time to type in this thing...or maybe I do I'm just to lazy to do so I'm not really sure because now that I think about it I don't do I whole lot. But right at the moment I do so here it goes... Yeah so I think I need another job, or just a new one simply because I'm tired of hearing my parents complaining about how I never work or how I get sent home a lot. I never seem to be able to satisfy these people! They complain how I don't have a job and I need to get one then when I do finally turn 16 and get a job they find something else to complain about. It's never ending it seems like. Okay done with that...

So today is the first day of this winter break. I'm not really looking forward to it. I'm probably going to be sitting in my room the whole time listening to music like I always do. I could call someone but really what am I going to do with them? The same thing just with them there too.

Speaking of people! There are some that are really pissing me off! I hate how people talk about other people...if you're going to complain about them 24 hours a day don't be friends with them, don't invite them to do stuff with you and act like you are the best of friends and then go off saying I can't stand them when they aren't around. Wow sorry, I'm sure the people that I'm talking about aren't even going to read this. It just makes me mad.

Well I think this is long enough for now and really who even goes on this anymore? O well it gave my something to do.

Well today was kind of okay I guess. I think I enjoyed my old classes more than I do these new ones but maybe I just have to get use to them. Over all my classes seem real easy I think my worst class is going to be Geom. I don't know why.

Anyway this weekend I had golden blades tournament. We lost all 3 games, nothing surprising...but I was still really excited! We didn't lose by 8 like with all the other games. Game 1 was 1-0, 2 was 3-1 and 3 was 1-2 and the last games was tied up until the last second no joke. I really happy to see our improvement! Well that's about all for now...plus I have to go to prac. Later

Heidi

Well I've been a little busy this week I guess. Pit 2 days this week it's okay I didn't really stay for tues. though. Finals are good as far as I know. Oswald died on tuesday...slight tear then plugged him in. lol Nothing much yesterday...today I went over Amys house and prac. with Ms. W went okay. And now I sit here eating marshmallows because there is nothing else to eat. O and I'm also crying over the fact that Amy finally got ice cream after I LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not fair! O well I'll just get some tomorrow from my work hopefully and its going to be 5X's better than the store bought stuff she has!!!!!!!! lol have to get ready to go to hockey now witch is very sad too...LATER!!!

Heidi

ps- I'm going to fail Brit. test tomorrow wish me LUCK!

Well I've recently been grounded from the computer and Im thinking it might have been a good thing in a way. All last week I ended up sleeping during the time I would have normally been on this computer, it was very enjoyable and I wasn't tired like I usually am. Plus today when I went on I had like a friend request, comment, and message on myspace. I felt important. yeah loser. As you can tell I'm lacking in friends and comments and that stupid waste of time. Well I'm about done with this pointless entry. Later people!